Explosive

I have a hard time with letting my emotions out. I've been telling myself its not appropriate. My boyfriend (in 2007) feels scared when I do and can't and will not tolerate that kind of behaviour from me. Hearing it though should be okay and I will talk to him. I will admit though that I've been physical before with throwing objects and slamming doors, I can understand that I shouldn't cause harm but I didn't realize I was causing myself harm from not allowing myself to feel and express emotion, explosive or not, because I thought my feelings were wrong and only rational, logical thoughts were acceptable behaviour.