The What

I have only ever lost two pets in my life. I loved them so much and the pain was great. But I feel new to this grief thing and I feel like I'm on a roller-coaster ride I can't get off. It has affected my relations and perception in life. I've been more critical and negative now that I've seen a darker side of life. I'm tired of living with people and throwing my life on the back burner. I'm ready to take charge and begin my life with everything I love and the way I like things; clean, organized, pretty and functional. To come and go as I please, not hearing other people's burdens. I can't take the stress of other people's problems. I just can't.